Best fri(end)

[Kaylakakes97]

I wonder if you wonder about me
Because I wonder about you
I've tried and tried
To be there for you
As you were for me
And with every email I dont get a response to
And every call where you dont call first
Makes me wonder more and more if you even remember me
It's not been that long. Not really.
And I'm not sure but I cant be the only one trying.
I've listened to your explanations
And heard your what seem to be excuses
I'm just not sure if it's you or if its him
But I do recall you ghosting me because of speed.
I do recall you admitting you didnt want me to know
You didnt want me to worry, you said you're getting clean
And then you ghost me again and I dont understand
....why
And ofcourse again, I worried. And I worry because I know your battles with depression
I know your urges with self harm
And I know he didnt help any.
But hes in your life,
And where am I?
Where am I placed on your timeline?
Or am I erased anymore?
Just a memory of a good friendship that faded.
I never really considered anyone my best friend until I got to know you.
I wish youd never left
I wish youd never ghosted me
I wish youd just fucking respond to my emails
I wish youd just fucking call me....
I cant be the only one trying

[heinzs]