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Scarily Similar...

Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 4:04 pm
by DeirdreScott
HI again, everyone.
Just got finished reading all of The Ravyn's postings... I feel like I've just been knocked in the chest. I see myself in all of her writings. Very very similar... Very very scary...
I have gone through some of the same things. Especially the story about Rape, except, i wasn't 12, I was 7... the first time.
I feel like she is a part of me. :cry:

Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 4:16 pm
by thief of dreams
She is and always will be a part of many of us. welcome home

Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 5:41 pm
by heinzs
A fitting tribute to both of you as survivors of such madness.

I've taken the liberty of moving your post to the Ravyn's nest where it shall reside among similarities you share.

Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 8:34 pm
by DeirdreScott
Thank you much. I feel like I am her reborn...

Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 8:50 pm
by heinzs
That would be a lovely feat indeed.

:mrgreen:

Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 9:57 pm
by DeirdreScott
A lovely feat, although a sad repetition of the madness that seizes beautiful children...

Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 10:41 pm
by heinzs
But you still retain the gift of life...

(we all miss our sweet Jenn)

Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 11:17 pm
by DeirdreScott
But at what cost?
The tears that flow freely from dry eyes?
The innocence lost to greedy poloticians?
She didn't deserve that.
Neither did I...

Posted: Thu Aug 11, 2005 11:40 pm
by thief of dreams
no one does. but the best part,is the day you open your eyes and find the strength to shed the blame (not forgiveness, cause fuck them and forgiveness) but to not let it bend you into a person who can only point and cry. but into someone who decides to hell with my past, im doing what i want from now on. that is a awesome day...

Posted: Fri Aug 12, 2005 12:02 am
by DeirdreScott
This is a very hard point to arrive at... And I hate it when others don't understand why you can't forgive and forget... i hate it when others are not there... :'(

Posted: Fri Aug 12, 2005 2:41 pm
by starfire
They say that they understand, that they can help, that they'll make it all go away and the monsters will just disappear and you can forget. But even when it's over, when you've moved on, the monster still comes back and attacks you, makes you think it's your fault, makes you wish you didn't exist. And every night when you fall asleep, he comes back again, creeping into your mind, making you scream as the same pain fills your very soul, and you know there's nothing you can do, there's nothing anyone can do. To many nights I've heard people say it going to be okay, that I have something to live for, that I shouldn't hate them and I should forgive. No, never, never, never...

Sorry, I kind of high jacked this post. my bad. but I know where your coming from, I don't understand the situation, but I know what it's like to be put in the same position, and hate the person who has made your life a living hell.

I'm not as strong as thief though, I've tried to be, but I'm just... not. w/e though, you should take advice from him, he is extremely wise, I just wish my past was actually over so I could have a future.

-Demonstress Starfire

Posted: Fri Aug 12, 2005 8:37 pm
by DeirdreScott
Word... :cry:

DeirdreScott

Posted: Tue Aug 16, 2005 7:02 am
by Debbie
Hi DeirdreScott, I too read the story of Ravyn..and it broke my heart and I too could relate to some of what she went through..though she went through so much more than I...but I found myself..found the strength to live..sometimes the past haunts me :shock: it sneaks up out of my subconscience mind...but then I look around and say to myself...I'm alive and well...and that was yesterday...I must go on..I say a little prayer for strength and keep going...sometimes I help others also who are going through some of what I went through because I do understand their pain..it gives them hope when they see I made it ...
now I look at my lifes pain and experiences as stepping stones to better myself and those around me...
I pray you and anyone else will find strength to move forward and start a whole new life...
take care sweet one...take care...bless you.. :hearts:

Posted: Wed Aug 17, 2005 2:18 pm
by DeirdreScott
Thank you. This means a lot to me. I am glad that I can talk to someone about this whole situation without having to actually look at them... Anynomity is a great comfort when it comes to this kind of situation...
Thank you again.

Deirdre Scott

Posted: Thu Aug 18, 2005 6:00 am
by Debbie
Deirdre any time dear heart...thats what friends are for.. :hello: