You have killed me

[Lady Byron]

You have killed me …

You have killed me …
But it takes me a long time to die.
I have ceased to live,
I hardly exist
In the turmoil of my anxieties
In the grasp of my fears,
Raped by my terrors.
I’m crawling
In the vomit
Of my eternal grief,
In the rain
Of my endless tears.
Deep sadness
Is my shadow.
Sometimes, I take my head
In my hands
And sink into nothingness
Or I cry
They give me pills,
As if pills could
Mend a heart;
As if pills could repair a broken soul.
They drug me
And I sleep in a limbo
Of haunting memories,
Of awesome dreams.
You have killed me…
But it takes me a long time to die.
I have tried to leave
That useless
And painful existence.
But THEY know better
And brought me back to life.
THEY want to shut me
In an asylum,
So that no one can hear my trials
Anymore,
So that no one can see
My bleeding wounds.
So that I stop to be a bother
For Society;
So that you can live on,
Like an honest citizen
Unsuspected.

You have killed me…
But it takes me a long time to die.

[purplelionness]

how huantingly sad

[Lady Byron]

Thanks for reading me.

Lady Byron

[purplelionness]

no problem, I enjoyed it, well written

[Lady Byron]

Thanks again for your visit.

Lady Byron

[moonflower]

this is chilling and so sad! ..im sending you hugs! you have expressed your words well!.. *hugs*

[Lady Byron]

Thanks for taking the time of reading me.

Lady Byron

[bags123]

Very Powerful poetry my Lady. Welcome back to PP.

[Lady Byron]

Thanks a lot for having the patience to read me. I'm not sure to deserve the compliments. But thank you all the same.

Anyway, I'm not going to keep on posting. I tried doing it again, but it's not for me and now, there are so many people, so many texts, that you can't read and comment all the poems you would like to.

On the top of it, I feel more comfortable, writing what I feel I want to write, without worying if people like it or not, and maybe sharing the poems with a couple of friends.

But again... Thank you for your contribution.

Lady Byron

[heinzs]

You need never worry here about whether people like or do not like your writings. We enjoy your participation at whatever level meets with your comfort zone. But in the end you are the one who must decide what that encompasses.

You are always welcome at the Pages, Lady B.

[Lady Byron]

Thanks for taking the time to write to me. You're very thoughtful and I'm grateful for this.

Thank you for your warm welcome too. But I think, I just cannot post on forums. It attracts me. Every time, I think I'm going to like it and it doesn't work. It interferes with my writing.

I'm a solitary writer and never think my stuff is interesting enough to share it... sometimes with a friend or two.

But I regularly visit the "Pages" and read at random. I don't comment, but I read.

So, I'm going back to my solitary writing... Maybe, it's selfish, maybe it's because I can't bore everybody with my texts.

Thanks for all. Long life to the "Pages", a home for a bunch of marvellous poets.

Lady Byron

[chancellor]

i will miss seeing your avatar; it is so cute and is a joy to see. i've selected it as my computer background, in case you leave.

[Lady Byron]

Thanks for your post. I'm glad you like my avatar. I'm sorry if you miss it. As long as you don't miss the poetry, it's not too bad.

Kind Regards.

Lady Byron

[chancellor]

yes, of course, you and your writings will be missed here too. best wishes!

[budda head]

How close to home that is. You bravely express your self so hauntingly well.