The Lover and the Perfectionist

[Dimitri Kova]

It's different when your thoughts become spoken,

They don't flow as easy, pitchy and broken.

The things said throw me into a perpetual state of self-oppression;

Hands move to cover ears that have been ignored for so long.

Why has this become my one obsession?

This suffering so prolonged;

The damage done.

When will this night end?

Are we close enough yet…

I doubt that I'm coming to the tunnel.

The light is too bright for me to continue forward.

My panic button is triggered at the sight of you.





I'd give anything just so you could make it through.

Letting go of fear suspending disbelief;

Here I am lifted by your lies only to fall harder when I learn the truth.





So I heard about the lies;

And your cutting intentions.

And thought of all the times I worried about you,

When you only loved you

And I was just scenery.

Inanimate and emotionless,

How you've grown to be.

No need for absent apologies;

My absence shout impact you enough.

But you're so self-involved you won't even read my note;

Assessing the damage you've inflicted would be selfless.

And we can't have that can we?





I'd give anything just so you could make it through.

Letting go of fear suspending disbelief;

Here I am lifted by your lies only to fall harder when I learn the truth.





I'll take a shot in the dark

And pray you're down when the lights come on.

Though I know it will be me on the floor,

Trying to get back up again,

Fending off the truth that darkness brings.





I'd give anything just so you could make it through.

Letting go of fear suspending disbelief;

Here I am lifted by your lies only to fall harder when I learn the truth.


This is more of a song, i can take credit for some; it was a collab with one of my friends.

[Moushka]

I enjoyed reading this and reflecting on my own feelings as I read it. I crave, crave the truth and don't care if I can't handle it because I know that whatever the truth is, I will be able to handle it no matter how hard it may be. This is really deep, I like it very much. I am living without the truth and I think that is a lot harder. In my case, I don't know who's lying, but I know somebody is. The truth can and will set me free. I know it. Nice write.