Memories of Peri

[Spazway]

Memories of Peri

I sit here and stare out the window
Each rain drop on the pane mirrors the tears that fall.
These droplets that fall from the sky and my eyes
Are symbols of the pain I feel inside.
When I'm around others I appear happy, almost carefree
But I’m not. Inside I'm a mess. I'm falling apart.
You’ve been gone for some time now,
Yet it feels as though it were only yesterday.
I think of you at least twice a day.
I remember how it used to be:
You were always smiling and laughing.
Always singing off-key,
But you always put some of yourself into every song.
I remember your sympathetic ear and broad shoulder.
You always knew when to kick my butt in gear
And never took “I can’t” or “It’s hopeless” as an excuse
For any failure, whether your own or someone else’s.
You joie de vivre was contagious and so was your courage.
I wish I had some of that courage because I need it
To help me move on with my life.
Sometimes I wonder whether I will ever be able to
Live my life without you by my side.
I know in my mind that I will be able to do that
Yet my heart, well, that’s a different story.
I know the pain is going to ease a little more each day
But sometimes I wish it would go away completely.
I know it won’t go away completely until I join you
Because until you and I are reunited in “Paradise”
You will live here on earth through me
Because I will always carry our memories and moments in my heart.

[Broken Wings]

such a beautiful tribute

wonderful metaphors

[Spazway]

Thank you, Broken Wings. I wrote this for and about my best friend. He was only 21 when a heart attack claimed him. I can't believe he's been gone 8 years this December.

[Broken Wings]

its sad when life leaves those who are still youthful...

it must have been a long eight years for you

[Spazway]

It's been a very long eight years, Broken Wings. We knew he was going to die, though. He had Duchenne's Muscular Dystrophy, which eventually kills.

[Spazway]

I'm not one to bump my own work but I'm making an exception for this one. Peri died 14 years ago today and I still miss him terribly.