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<a href="#001">Hemophilia </a>
<a href="#002">Numb</a>
<a href="#003">Broken Man {Parental Advisory: Explicit Content}</a>
<a href="#004">Booze, Acid, Weed</a>
<a href="#005">Darkness</a>
<a href="#006">Sunshine High {explicit content}</a>
<a href="#007">Alone</a>
<a href="#008">Damn Prison {Parental Advisory: Offensive to Southern People}</a>
<a href="#009">Not Enouth</a>
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<a name="001">Hemophilia</a>

The bleeding will never stop
The man's life shall end today
For when blood does cease to clot
The life flows away, away

If wounds are nothing to fret
Then life keeps away the night
But when mothers show regret
The end kills the day, the light

And now all has slipped so far
So far that the light is gone
Those left wish to burn like stars
So pain ends before too long

The blood flows forevermore
And then life shall live no more

The bleeding will never stop
The vampire doth slip away
Into night's still blackness crop
Where dread evils plot decay

No more shall the dead lie still
But now they shall rule the light
And not stop at only shrill
But then they shall rule the night

The vampires will take control
Of all held so dear and true
As all loses what is known
The dark ones begin their rule

How long will the death prolong
Shall they sing another song

The bleeding will never stop
So years pass with death in mind
Does heav'n hear the silent knock
That goes on for all of time

The bleeding will never stop
The blood stains the sacred rocks
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<a name="#002">Numb</a>

Mind falling down into
Fierce blackness rising
Sharp needles pricking
All around

Hours pass by without
Anyone caring about
What I am or
What I do

You need to run

As I run the sweat pours down my face
I know not why I run this race
This trace
I follow is so damn long
I think it's wrong
I'm not very strong
Ten years on the mile and I'm ready to go
One for the money and two for the show
Eating rats on the campfire I don't know why
Then I wake up at home ready to die

Skin melting off it's
Tearing away to nothing
Weeping for a tin can
Crying in the rain

I can't stand
I can't take the pressure
Leave me alone please stay with me
Just take me away
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<a name="#003">Broken Man {Parental Advisory: Explicit Content}</a>

I'm a broken man
I'm a broken man
Not fit to live
Cut me down where I stand

My life was torn apart
From the start
And you put me back together
Thinking we
Would be
Happy
Forever
Whatever
I wanted went out the window
As I put you in front of me and made that all I know
And so
Now I'm slowly dying
'Cause you broke me
To piec-
es as I was trying
To make
You take
Me away everyday
Doing everything I could to make
You stay
But it didn't work out
I'm sorry it didn't work out
It doesn't add up to the same amount
I'm gonna have to learn to do without
But I don't think I can make it and so I shout

I'm a broken man
I'm a broken man
Not fit to live
Cut me down where I stand

So now
How
Do I live on
When all I hold dear
Is gone
I fear
That this is the end
It's when
I die
Inside
It's when
For the very last time
I had
The chance
To be
Truly
Happy
Just you and me
Giddy
And free
But that's
In the past
It's all going by
So fast
And now my life
Is smashed
'Cause the good times
Have passed
You're the last
Girl that I will ever love
Because I gave you my heart and it wasn't enough
You snuffed
Out my life and made off with my heart
To call you a thief
Is only a start
It's my belief
That I
Am about to die
I can't survive
This pain inside
It's time
For me
To be
Sad again
To wallow around in my own sin
I had a friend
But now she's gone
We'd been together for so long
Now what'd I do wrong
Why do you hate me
Why wouldn't you wait for me
Why
Am I
Stuck with the late fees
Must I
Die
At your hand
Are you going to kill me like my last band
I accept my fate
I accept the hate
Because this lonely state
Is more than I can take

I'm a broken man
I'm a broken man
Not fit to live
Cut me down where I stand

How many times
Am I gonna die
Before I find
My place to lie
It is so hard
To tear apart
I fell from the stars
With a broken heart

It's not fair
How you tear
My heart from me
I remain still
As you kill
All that's left of me
I see
Into the future and it's not looking good
Me in a grave and you right where I stood
Unaffected by all the death around you
But you don't see all the darkness around you
Don't you see that I was lost before I found you
And I love everything about you
But now you
Don't care
How I fare
In the world alone
If I try
I will die
Now you condone
That kind of murder that you commit
You know I think you're full of bullshit

I'm a broken man
I'm a broken man
Not fit to live
Cut me down where I stand

Goddamn it how many times
Am I gonna die
Before I find
My place to lie
It is so hard
To tear apart
I fell from the stars
With a broken heart

I'm a broken man
I'm a broken man
Not fit to live
Cut me down where I stand
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<a name="#004"> Booze, Acid, Weed</a>

Booze, acid, weed
Booze, acid, weed
I'll do anything I need
For some booze, acid, weed
I am stoned out of my mind
So drunk I'm almost blind
I can't feel my brain
A whisper sounds like a train
Booze, acid, weed
Booze, acid, weed
I'll do anything I need
For some booze, acid, weed
I got to get a grip
I'm having a bad trip
I hurt so bad
I wish I hadn't had
So much booze, acid, weed

ii. Late Night

Places to go
Things to do
By the time I'm done
It will be two
Joints to smoke
Women to please
By the time I'm done
It will be three
Oh, come on
Just one more
I can stay up
Until four
Night time
Is when I thrive
Oh, crap
I get up at five

iii. Alarm

Beep, beep
Ring
This is 92, KSJO
Beep, beep
Bringing you some
Ring
Beep, beep
Morning rock
Hello
Beep, beep
Sir, sir
This is front desk
Beep, beep
With your wake up call
Click
Beep, beep
Click
Five o'clock in the morning
I feel like I'm dead
Why is there such
A throbbing pain in my head
Noises telling me
Sleep is bad
These tidings they bring
Are some very sad
How can i live with myself
You tell me I can't rest
It's what I do best
What will I do now
If you're listening now
You're quite an early bird
I got a long block of
AC/DC
Coming at you
If you're feeling groggy
A small dose
Of Hell's Bells
Ought to wake you up
Damn you
I enjoy my sleep
Why do you enjoy
Being a creep
You tell me
I must stay awake
When in order to live
I need sleep everyday
Are you saying
You want me to die
You don't lie
I know what I must do
I got my bell
I'm gonna take you to hell
I'm gonna get you
Satan get you

iv. A Stabbed Heart And An Open Eye

It is a shame
That he died
From a stabbed heart
And an open eye
He left a note
Explaining why
He stabbed his heart
Because of his open eye
It reads:
Mikey said I had to die
He said I could never
Close my eye
He's very honest
He's telling lies, boy
Yes, he would never, lie
Don't trust him, boy
He said I had to wake up
Only for a moment
So I had to die
Listen up, boy
We're here mourning
Your mother and I
We hope you appreciate
Us taking the liberty of closing your eye
God could've helped you
He could've showed you why
You didn't have to stab your heart
And life is better with open eyes

v. Mourning Song

Goodbye, my son
I made coffee
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<a name="#005">Darkness</a>

Inside my soul
I see the black of pain
So dark inside
For I have been slain

I am crushed
By the blackness inside
It seeks to destroy me
And I can't

Let me out of here

All I know is
Pain and misery
I've given in
Anguish rules me

I wish for death
To end my suffering
To bring a close
To those feelings

You cannot escape

Come with me, child
Accept your fate
Give into the darkness
Give in to the darkness
You're mine forever
You cannot escape
Give in to the darkness
Give in to the darkness

Many times before
I lied in my bead
With dreams of you
Running in my head

And sometimes
I relive the good times
Make myself believe
That I am fine

I will consume you

But I know deep inside
That I am dying
I don't know why
I bother lying

Truly this pain
Is my master forevermore
Darkness is here
My life is torn

Give in to me

Forfeit your soul
Drive out the light
Give in to the darkness
Give in to the darkness
Deal with the pain
Night after night
Give in to the darkness
Give in to the darkness

Give in to the darkness
Give in to me
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<a name="#006">Sunshine High {explicit content}</a>

Book I. Sunshine High

Part I

i. People (Part I)

There are things out there
Out there in the streets
Don't you know
They can't be beat
They'll screw you over
Any way they can
You can't stop them
The shit will hit the fan
You're fucked, you're fucked
There's nothing you can do
Your life's pretty much the only thing
They don't have of you

ii. Life

Life
It can be full of strife
It can make everything so bad
And make you feel so sad
Life is not fair
It gives you a bunch of crap
Makes you feel like you just been slapped
Put you down in the dumps
Give you bruises and bumps
Life is not fair

iii. People (Part II)

When life gives you lemons
And you got no place to go
So
You go to your friends
They won't help you
Don't you know
Oh
People just don't care
Can't you see
People just don't care
Except when the weather is fair
And you have cash to spare
I thought I could trust
My friends to help me out
Yeah
I asked them to assist
But when I got to them
They started to scream and shout
Ooh
Do they ever care
Can't you see
People do not care
Except when the weather is fair
And you have cash to spare
They don't care
So if you have some troubles
You are on your own, yeah
Hey
You can't trust no one
So what you do
Is just like I shown you
'Cause them people
They don't ever care
Can't
You
See
People just don't care
Except when the weather is fair
And you have cash to spare
Can't you see
People just don't care
Except when the weather is fair
And you have cash to spare
Why can't you see

iv. Humor (Part I)

I do believe
We are not alone
Tonight
There's someone out there
Watching us
Fight
They think they'd like
To have a little
Fun
But at the butt end of this joke
We are the
Ones
They have the power
To pull wool over our
Eyes
All we know
Is really in
Disguise
We can never tell
Because they lay it on so
Thick
If you ask me
Their sense of humor is just plain
Sick

v. Fun

Come with me, friend
I think you'll find this
Quite
Nice
I don't have all the details
So I can't be
Pre-
cise
When we are enjoying ourselves
We're really in
Deep
Pain
It's just an illusion
The real world has
Been
Stained
There is no fun in this world
It's just the pain that has been covered
I can prove it to you, my friend
It's right behind this door
Please come in
You see
A long time ago
I was very ill
I thought that I would die
But then I saw myself in the mirror
My wounds were healed
And I was well
So I have begun
To find the real fun
So you say
Your world is
So
Bleak
If you don't learn to play their game
You will
Be
Weak
You see
Anyone
Can beat these things
All you have to do is see
Know the truth
See the truth
The truth shall set you free
You as well can be the one
Finding the real fun

vi. Humor (Part II)

And so
They laugh as we
Hurt
But they will
Go away if we
Learn
How do you educate
All of humanity when they are
Blind
It seems we are doomed
To be put through the
Grind
Even if we beat them
We cannot win
Still
For they have other illusions
They command to do their
Will

vii. I Can't Help It

When I'm alone
I think of you
And I wonder
What I'm
Gon-
na
Do
'Cause you're away
And I need you
I can't help it
I'm in love with you
You give me reason to live
Every time I see your face
You give me encouragement
Every time I hear your voice
You make me happy
Just knowin' you're alive
I can't help it
I can't help it
I'm in love
With you

viii. Stop Your Insanity

Stop your insanity
I thought
You'd've figured out by now
Love is just some of the crap
In their magical mystery show
You see
We are really chained
We cannot interact unless
We break the bonds someway
Stop it
Do not play with them
Don't you know that they have power
You simply cannot win
No
But still
I think we can defeat
If we simply turn away
From everyone we meet
Although
When your eyes are unveiled
You'll see what is and what isn't
It might make you wail
Do we
Really want to win
Maybe their reality
Is best in the end
Who knows
Why not
I'm willing to give truth a try
I will keep my dignity
Even when I die
I will
Rebel against them
Show them that I don't answer
To anybody's whim
I'll stop
I won't play with them
Without toys they have no power
They lose, I win
Yeah

ix. Humor (Part III)

Emotion
Illusion
Emotion
Illusion
Can you tell
Which one is which
All we perceive
Seems to be created by that bitch

Part II

i. Are You God?

Wait a second
Where am I
Am I dreaming
Or did I die
This place I'm at
Is so great
It looks like Heaven
Have I met my fate
There is a voice
Very near
Let me see
What I can hear
You have discovered me
You have learned of my game
You have become a threat to me existence
You must now be punished
So you will not spread word
You must be banished to never speak again
What are you
Are you from another world
Tell me
What are you
Greater thinking thing
You must be God
Silence forever
Never speak of this
You're
Too
Late
Silence forever

ii. Silence

Silence

iii. I Don't Need It (Part I)

My brain is going at a wild pace
I can feel a cool breeze against my face
All I can see are bright lights
And there is a man in white
A shooting pain
A sleepy feeling
What are they doing
I have to stop them

iv. I Don't Need It (Part II)

What are you doing
I am perfectly fine
Don't try to sedate me
Don't waste my time
No
Don't you see
I don't need it
I sure don't need it
Can't you hear me
I'm talking to you
I don't need your help
I'm as good as new
No
You can't hear me
But I don't need it
I'm trying to say
I don't need it

v. I Don't Need It (Part III)

On the run
Who knows how long
How can I be mute
What will I do
I'll have to see
What happens to me
Can I still win
Or is it the end
I will fight
On through the weary night
He will not see me fear
The end of this game is near

vi. It's All A Joke

Don't you think
That we might be on a stage
In a great galactic comedy
The funny part is we age
We age, we hurt
We cheat and lie
The one thing they don't understand
Is that we die
And so we play along
In their puppet show
Their weakness, though, is if we find
That it's all a joke

vii. Make Fun Of Life

What we always think
Might not always be right
You see the angler don't have fun
If the fish don't ever fight
We got to stand out in a crowd
And never have a care
You will gain power
Then the fight will be fair
Just sit back and wait
Relax for awhile
They will take the bait
They lose control
If we see
So won't you rebel with me
I will not
Entertain
So I make fun of life
Let's revel in what's real
The moon and the sun
As our attention goes elsewhere
They stop having fun
Stop trying to escape
With things that they have made
And as we fight back
Their power starts to fade
What have you got to lose
I think I'd come along
If I were in your shoes
They lose control
If we see
So won't you rebel with me
I will not
Entertain
So I make fun of life
Yeah, they lose control
If we see
So won't you rebel with me
I will not
Entertain
So I make fun of life
Yeah, yeah
I will not
Entertain
So I make fun of life
Live my life
The way I feel
So I make fun of life

viii. Sunshine High

Sun
Sun
Sunshine
Sunshine high
Sunshine high
Livin' on a
Sunshine high
Livin' on a
Sunshine high
Yeah, yeah
I don't need your shit
To have any fun
I prefer getting high
Off the glorious sun
You may think I'm crazy
But I'll prove right in the end
Sunshine high
Livin' on a
Sunshine high
Livin' on a
Sunshine high
Yeah, yeah
Gonna enjoy my life forever
And never worry at all
Stay away from trouble
And have a ball
Sunshine high
Livin' on a
Sunshine high
Livin' on a
Sunshine high
Yeah, yeah
Sunshine high
Livin' on a
Sunshine high
No clouds for me
Life's too good

ix. No Smoking Sign In A Desert

You know
Even the sun's fake
Really
You serious
I'm serious
Ah, shit

Book II. Break

Part I

i. It's All Gone

Woke up yesterday
Thought I ruled the day
But to my dismay
It wasn't
Me and my cousin
Had nothing to say
Shut out all
That made me fall
Up against the wall
So tight
I lack light
And then I stall
I used to have everything
But not no more
I see it so far away
Realize
It's all gone
It never lasts
Falls to the past
And gets eaten by the rats
Of this earth
Can't have no worth
When it goes by so fast
Seeing eyes
Want to compromise
They don't realize
Get nothing
For the trusting
And it all dies
I used to have everything
But not no more
I see it so far away
Realize
It's all gone
All my gorgeous treasure
Had such a great measure
I could buy myself any pleasure
I wanted
I got it
But it ain't mine no more says your
Lawyer who tells me
That everything befell me
Take it all it buys and sells me
I look up
All shook up
Nothing in the sky they might as well shell me
I used to have everything
But not no more
I see it so far away
Realize
It's all gone nothing in the sky
I used to have everything nothing in the sky
But not no more nothing in the sky
I see it so far away nothing in the sky
Realize
It's all gone
Nothing in the sky
It's all gone
Nothing in the sky
It's all gone
It's all gone

ii. I Am

I am
Nothing
Until you're nothing for
I am
A figment
Of your imagination
I am
Whatever
You make me out to be
I am
Chained behind
Your deadly bite and
I am
Something
When I break free

iii. Free (Part I)

Free
Set up tall
Then I fall
And remember
I'm not free yet

iv. How Many Times

How many times
Must I break
Through your lies
Until I awake
And I'm alive
If I don't realize
I just shake
You've had your fun
Now let me go
You know I'm done
I demand it so
How many times
Oh, how many
Must they die
If neither of us is winning
Tell me why
You're too shy
To admit you're sinning
Set me free
I'll leave you alone
Want something real
Not a clone
How many times
Must I try
To die
In a state of mind
Where I feel I can fly
But I
Know why
I didn't die
But instead I cry
I want to fly
Fly
Want to fly
I want to
Want to I
Want to fly

v. Maybe

It just could be
That when I see
As I saw
The true and false
It may be true
I could go to you
Take you far away
See your first real day
For maybe
Maybe I
Never did die
And I just laid down to sleep
Maybe you
Are sleeping, too
In a giant bounding leap
And then again
If I win
And escape the wrong
Will it be long
Before I see
That I couldn't be
Lost with you
Forever new
For maybe
Maybe I
Can never die
Maybe we
Just float free
If we wake up
Shake up
Look and see
Life's not what we thought it would be
Got to say it
Play it
Like singers three
Get back to reality
Maybe

vi. The Joke's On You

Laugh, cry
Live and die
Laugh, cry
Live and die
Look at me now
See how
This pow-
er chang-
es the chains
That remain
After I
Live and die
'Cause I'm to shy
To believe
What I see
In front of me
And this bitch
Gives me shit
Have a fit
That I ain't
Such a saint
I want to paint
It all black
Don't mean jack
If I lack
What I need
To feed
This greed
That drives
My life
Until I
Laugh, cry
Live and die
Laugh, cry
Live and die
It ain't enough
That you fuck
My own broth-
er but then
You do it again
I come and you send
Me away
Far away
With restrain-
ing order
So I got nothing for you
So says your lawyer
And yet I
See a lie
In your eye
That knows
I froze
When you tickled my toes
And I ran
Like a man
While in his hand
Is his dick
Big prick
But it makes me sick
That you
Find it amus-
ing when I'm true
Laugh, cry
Live and die
Laugh, cry
Live and die
Went no place
Did nothing
What do I have to prove
Went no place
Did nothing
What do I have to prove
What do I have to prove
What
Is my cut
I'm in a rut
'Cause I
See the lie
But it flies
Away
Far away
For a day
Then returns
And fucks up my earns
I don't learn
That when
I win
I simply lose again
Folks
This ain't no joke
I awoke
From my sleep
A freak
To all
Begin to fall
I call
My folks
And they call me a joke
Forever yoked
Laugh, cry
Live and die
Laugh, cry
Live and die
What do I have to prove
What do I have to prove
Went no place
Did nothing
What do I have to prove
Went no place
Did nothing
What do I have to prove
What do I
Laugh, cry
Went no place
Live and die
Did nothing
Laugh, cry
What do I have to prove
Live and die
Went no place
Laugh, cry
Did nothing
Live and die
What do I have to prove
What do I have to prove
What do I
What do I have to prove

vii. Flight

Nothing in the sky
Nothing fly
What do I have to how many times
Nothing in the sky
What do I
How many
I want to fly
This world is nothing
I must be free
So long as people
Look at me
I look above
To the outside
With a running start
I begin to fly

Part II

i. Free (Part II)

And then
I fall
Been falling to earth
Ever since birth
And when
It all
Comes down to the bottom line
Fuck you all
This shit ain't for me
So get it straight
Freedom can wait
Listen to my call

ii. Second

Once
Twice
If that is two
It's all very nice
Five
And ten
It's the same now
As it was then
If you walk
With a piece of chalk
Be sure to write
I'm not sure
If I can procure
Something to end the night
Dark
And light
It's all the same
If you aren't very bright
Set
In stone
Are the rules of the game
So you might as well condone
Get it straight
That I don't wait
To hear your call
I'd rather move on
Under the sun
If it exists at all

iii. I Don't Need It (Part IV)

I'm back in here
Until I die
It's a
Small wonder why
I might as well
Not even try
To understand
This great big lie

iv. Dream (Part I)

Fall under
In a deep sleep
Oh, shit
I think this is what
They call a coma
How long will I go
Will the people I know
Still think I'm a fake
Here' a vision
I shall watch

Part III

i. Free (Part III)

Free
Is something in your mind
You see it if you're blind
'Cause it's all gone
Free
Shall never be achieved
This is something you believed
'Cause it's all gone
Free
Has all but gone away
And so now
I rule the day
Free
Is a very naughty word
One that you shouldn't have heard
'Cause it's all gone
Free
Lacking all light
Something of a blight
'Cause it's all gone
Free
Is what we discourage in you
We want you far
From the truth
And so you are forever bound
If you rise up we will take you down
Shut you up, tie you to the ground
And let you rot in your hell
Free
I dare you to go
I set it all so
But it's all gone
Free
You're nothing without me
Just wait and see
'Cause it's all gone
Free
Is bad but I'll save you the pain
If you want
To remain

ii. Dissipation

I dissolve
There
I
No
I dissolve

iii. Dream (Part II)

And so I
Slowly die
A figment of my
Unblinking eye

iv. Being Dead Ain't Half Bad

I float around
And 'round
And 'round
Images drawing
Me back
To the ground
Seeing circles
Flying
Far and away
I could chase them forever
Or at least
Half the day
Look about me
See nothing
No annoying stare
And the weather conditions
I'd say
Are rather fair
If this is all that death's had
I'd say being dead ain't half bad
I sit back
I lay back
For a little while
And across my face
Comes a great big
Beaming smile
Nothing to bother me
I'd say
I got it made
All I need is a woman
So I
Can get laid
Shit, this ain't nothing
Compared to
Life on earth
Hope you
Get to be here
For what it's worth
If this is all that death's had
I'd say being dead ain't half bad
Except for
One thing
I'm not dead
But rather
Oh, but
Instead
I'm out
Of existence
Forever
Think, live
Or breathe
I can never
See your
Lovely face
In front of mine
Stuck here
All by myself
For all of time
I wish I were dead
'Cause I'd say being dead ain't half bad

v. Dream (Part III)

Yet another vision
Coming my way
I see it floating to me
With something to say
Maybe I will see
What is in store
Find what I must do
Forevermore

vi. Please Come Back (Part I)

A long time ago
I held you in my arms
You would believe me when I said
That I would do no harm
Now I have kept that promise
Never did anything but love you
And yet you run away
Saying I'm not true
Baby, please come back
Baby, please come back
To me
You say I loved another
I tell you it's not true
The only person I ever loved
I tell you, girl, it's you
It has been a long, long time
And you, I'm starting to miss
For I don't know if I could last
Without another kiss
Baby, please come back
Baby, please come back
To me
I want you here
By my side
Without you
It hurts inside

vii. Please Come Back (Part II)

You've got to admit that without me
You wouldn't have gotten that far
And yet you leave me behind
Because I'm no use no more
But I'm telling you the truth now
That we need each other
I have always thought of you
As more than just another
Oh, please come back
Oh, please come back
To me

viii. Free (Part IV)

I'll be free
Do you call this free
I take the latter
The revisit
Out here it's a losing battle
Come inside
It's nice and warm
Set all your cares aside
Kick your shoes off
And realize
Ignorance is bliss

Part IV

i. I Don't Need It (Part V)

I'm out
I'm free
Hey, look at me
Hello
Goodbye
You're not in my eye
I'm leaving
Now
I don't care how

ii. Nothing In The Sky

Nothing in the sky
Nothing
In nothing
The in nothing
Sky the in nothing
Sky the in
Sky the
Sky
Nothing in the sky
I look to the sky
And I ask why
It's so mean to me
By showing me a lie
Second nature
Always hates your
Own self inside
And the pain comes later
It always bites
At your hide
With an emptiness
That hurts inside
'Cause there's nothing in the sky
Nothing for your eye
It's all up and left
So you might as well cry
I want it back
I know you want it back
But you found it out
And you can't escape that fact
High
In the sky
My brothers fly
But not nigh
For another
Of my brothers
Has told me
Another
Smother-
ing all-see-
ing white
Lie
Nothing in the sky
Nothing for your eye
It's all up and left
So you might as well cry
I want it back
I know you want it back
But you found it out
And you can't escape that fact
No, there's nothing in the sky
Nothing for your eye
It's all up and left
So you might as well cry
I want it back
I know you want it back
But you found it out
And you can't escape that fact
Yeah
Bust something
C'm'on
Cry it out
Yeah something like this high
In the sky
My brothers fly
But not nigh
For another
Of my brothers
Has told me
Another
Smother-
ing all-see-
ing white
Lie
That what be going down
All over the world
Beg me for peace
I dare you to beg me for peace
Yeah, that's what I thought
You don't get none, now

iii. Sitting High

Sitting high
Ruler of the time
I sit back
And let it fly
Because I know
No matter how low
It ain't real to touch
'Cause I said so
Let them all hear
That the end is near
The game went over
Now we got to fear
Because I see
Them leaving our tree
Now we got to fade
Into false reality

iv. Pain

It's a false pain
But a deep pain for sure
'Cause you fell victim
To the lamest lure
Now I tell you
It's gonna hurt
Being nowhere
And everywhere alert
Of the pain
Where you can't see or move
Anywhere
It has been proved

v. Free (Part V)

So you see
We were meant to be
Lost
It's free
But not as I see
I'm tossed

vi. Goodbye

I write in my log
What I have seen
The experiment has failed
Tell the master
That free will will fuck things up

Book III. Analyze

i. Why Couldn't I See

And now
It's all been said and done
I wrote about
A life of fun
But somehow
It ended with a gun
It's all gone
Shattered to pieces
Conflicting ideas
Wrapped like a Reese's
And I wonder
When I lived to the tee
Why couldn't I see
'Cause it's been a long time
Since I wrote the equation
And now I try
To write for the nation
When I
Really need a vacation
You see, I followed through
In the story I wrote
I read until
He sung his last note
But I thought I could stay
At the beginning free
Why couldn't I see
I saw the man
I wrote into life
Sketched after a man
Who is none other than I
He stretched out his hand
Calling for the night
I watched
With a tear in my eye
So much like me
And so I cry
And I knew
His fate mine would be
Why couldn't I see
That when I make
A story for myself
The hands of fate
Will bring me down to Hell
For goodness's sake
Why can't I tell
That a story's got an end
And that end will come
That fact cannot change
You go back where you come from
And that ending
Will affect me
Why couldn't I see

ii. Warning

Heed my warning, my child
Listen to me before it's too late
My children, hear my words
You don't know how you'll suffer
There's always a bigger fish
And it's hungry for you
So let your ears hasten to listen
For you will need to hear
What I have to say
Heed my warning, my child
Listen to me before it's too late
My children, hear my words
That you must take one path
And follow it
Do not take two
For they will lead in opposite directions
And you will travel no distance
And you will not move
And the bandits of the road will see you
And they will take your life
So that they might be prosperous
But instead take one path
Heed my warning, my child
Listen to me before it's too late
My children hear my words
If you trip over a stone
Do not return to it to trip once more
But instead, take up the stone
And throw it over a cliff
So that it may be you who has made the stone fall
Rather than the stone causing you to fall
Heed my warning my child
Listen to me before it's too late
My children, hear my words
I love you too much
My children, hear my words
Listen to me before it's too late
I don't want to see you die

iii. It's The End

And so I
Look into the sky
I was there yesterday
Flying far away
As I ran off the end
And the road would bend
Nothing under me
And I feel so free
Spread my arms
Thought no harm
Felt like I could fly
But I knew it was a lie
When one's in free fall
One can see it all
It feel's like you're flying
Right before you're dying
It's the end of my life
It's the end of my strife
That's the price
For throwing the dice

iv. Analyze

I look back
Don't see jack
'Cause of a lack
Of stuff
To snuff
Out the love
I don't get
I lose a bit
'Cause I don't let
Myself
Analyze
What I've done in the past
Take my eyes
Out of the trash
Realize
That my code does not last
If I go one way
And then the other
Begin to betray
My own mother
I remember the day
When I was smothered
But now
It's time to start new
Somehow
I'll get back to what I knew
I found
That more is better than few
It's time for me
To begin to see
But first I must
Analyze

v. Vision

I stand
I look ahead of me
I see a road
I take up my pack
And begin to walk
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<a name="#007">Alone</a>

Now I live my life alone
I walk the very long road
And it hurts
I so long for the end to come
And the pain of being one
Forever

The life I just left
Calls out
It's haunting
My life now
Keeping me awake
Every night
Leaving tears
In my eyes

And death may seem so far away
But I think I may see it today
For the pain
The pain tears me up inside
Uprooting feelings I tried to hide
Away
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<a name="#008">Damn Prison {Parental Advisory: Offensive to Southern People}</a>

A California rocker imprisoned in AR
It's a bitch I got to stay here 'cause it's so damn far
From all I knew and all I held dear
It was so near
But now I fear
That I'll lose everything I tried so hard to gain
And the pain
Of the stain
On my life garments might be forever
I'll take nothing from here and then never
Leave anything behind
To remember me by
Just stuck inside
These walls to rot and die
But fuck that, I'm breaking out
Scream and shout
All about
Everything I know has to be true
Tell these trailer trash fuckers, fuck you
I ain't gonna change because of your fucking diety
He's good for you buut he's just not real to me
Talk all you want, you still can't steal from me
My character 'cause you have no empathy
Have you ever noticed the crazy trend down here
Statistically intelligence is lower, vision is not clear
And religion is up, so they all fear
Something no one can see or hear
My mom ain't my sister ain't my aunt or my cousin
The difference between me and you is my parents wasn't
Fucked up enough to keep the genes in one place
They realized that the pool needed space
Your daddy wast-
ed his sperm when he made all of you
All your women's claim to fame ain't her tits, it's her stew
But what you
Need to do
Is accept me for who I am
You try to change me but I don't give a damn
You've made some mistakes, and I'll admit I've made mine
But I don't need you to keep myself in line
So stop invading my space, I'll do just fine
I won't smoke a blunt on your time
I'll just keep to myself if you'll only let me
So stop trying to make me active, doing nothing ain't nothing sketchy
But out there's a bunch of stupidity, and, brother, it's catching
The only sign of intelligence is this chess player and a trekkie
Two in the whole goddamn state
And even they
Say, "Y'all want some catfish fillet"
So I'm shutting down so I don't get contaminated
I've tried to debate it
But you won't listen, you're too damn jaded
You didn't have to lock me up in a retirement center
I'm only eighteen, and these people got the air on in the dead of winter
So I'll break out before my thoughts get cold as my ass
No I don't want to go fishing for bass
I want my fucking freedom back
I want to be who I am not who you want to make me
Now fuck off, 'cause you don't have what it takes to break me

Locked up down here against my will
Trapped in this damn state until
I get off the weed
But what I need
Is to get off this fucking carousel
You're fucking with my head, driving me crazy
But the problem is I'm too damn lazy
To hold in my rage
So I rattle your cage
I'm not gonna let this damn prison break me

I'm fucking pissed off and now I'm gonna let it out
I'm not gonna give you the benefit of the doubt
Every damn one of you ain't worth shit
And your chicken tastes worse than an old whore's clit
I'm doing this bit
Because I wan't you to know
I'm fucking pissed off, now fucking leave me alone
I don't condone
Your dumbass way of life
Sure it's worked for generations, but that don't make it right
Ain't nothing good ever come out of this place
"But what about bluegrass and Fred Durst," well I rest my case
Get out of my face
With that God shit already
You just don't get it so, here, brother, let me
Explain something to you about Jesus Christ
The man died
And then ... end of story alright
But you go ahead and believe what you want to
I ain't gonna do nothing to stop you
And can I do one simple thing without the whole town getting word
One girl sees me making out with my bitch and then everybody's, "Oh, haven't you heard
That girl
Was kissing that heathen maniac"
Well that's what the bitch gets for taking aphrodesiacs
Lay off already with the goddamn sweet tea
I get the point, you made it special for me
I'm a drug addict, I don't want no lame-ass drink
Get out of here, come back with some Starbucks Coffee

Locked up down here against my will
Trapped in this damn state until
I get off the weed
But what I need
Is to get off this fucking carousel
You're fucking with my head, driving me crazy
But the problem is I'm too damn lazy
To hold in my rage
So I rattle your cage
I'm not gonna let this damn prison break me

I'm gonna challenge every ideal you hold dear and true
I know damn well I ain't gonna change you
But I just want to get up in your face
You've been in mine ever since I arrived in this place
Now back the fuck up
Before I fuck your ass up
Don't say a word, just shut the fuck up
You piss me off with your air of redneck pride
Oh, wait, that's just your smell 'cause you fuckers never use Tide
I tried
To reason with you but you didn't get the picture
So let me explain it to you, you sons of bitches
Wash your ass, wash your ass for Christ's sake
Wash your hair and you'll get rid of those flakes
You stink, motherfucker, am I getting through to you
You only got one tooth
Jesus, who raised you
Oh, that's right, more redneck fuckers
Who tried to make a fortune as farmers and truckers
Then ended their life as shit out of luckers
That's what you fucking get, suckers
The civil war's over, I know you're pissed off
But haha fuckheads, you fucking lost
Now get over it, don't reenact the battles
Go home, fry some okra, you assholes
The food it is great, but it's getting under my skin
You're not supposed to eat delicacies day out and day in
Even the crackheads down here go to church
If you don't bring it home, religion don't work
You're not fooling anyone, so drop it already
Damn, this place is so rural, there ain't even Fed E
Hey, the Jim Crow laws are gone
Black folk, you can now come along
Now I wonder why they all stay out of the city
They must be afraid you'll put 'em back to slavery
No, that's nothing to be proud of, that's stupidity
Call me a nigger lover, but they're all people to me
Stop shunning people 'cause they're different from you
I'll bet you killed Kennedy, didn't you
Fucking redneck trailer trash
Being around you makes me want to kick your ass
Goddamn
Man
I'll tell you why you're different
It's 'cause you haven't heard of this thing called deoderant
I can't take it anymore, bastard white trash
Next one of you talks to me I'm gonna kick his ass

Locked up down here against my will
Trapped in this damn state until
I get off the weed
But what I need
Is to get off this fucking carousel
You're fucking with me my head, driving me crazy
But the problem is I'm too damn lazy
To hold in my rage
So I rattle your cage
I'm not gonna let this damn prison break me
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<a name="#009">Not Enouth</a>

I gave you all of my love
But it wasn't enough
Apparently not enough
You just need-
ed to feed your greed
And then treat me rough

I gave you all of my love
But it wasn't enough
Apparently not enough
You just need-
ed to fill your greed
And then treat me rough

How can this be
That you loved me
So very much
But the very next day
You say
That I'm not your true love
I say
It's just jacked
That you give me the axe
So fast
That I lose track
Of my own life
What with all the strife
And joy going down
At the same time
I drown
In this sea
Of these feel-
ings I find
Send me
Into utter black-
ness 'til I crack
I say it's just jacked

Why
Won't I
Simply die
You killed me
But kept me
Alive

I gave you all of my love
But it wasn't enough
Apparently not enough
You just need-
ed to fill your greed
And then treat me rough

I gave you all of my love
But it wasn't enough
Apparently not enough
You just need-
ed to feed your greed
And then treat me rough

Let me go
Let me know
Let me die
Let me fly
You see just a short time
Awhile
I was on the very top
Now you knocked
Me down into the valley
With people from the alley
Become
One
Of them now so nothing shall be
Down with me
Or around with me
Your logic ain't sound with me
But I
Still try
To make you found with me
Or lost
I really don't care which way
I'm tossed
'Cause you killed me today
Life
With all the strife
Is over for me
Ain't no four-leaf clover for me
That's all I say

Why
Won't I
Simply die
You killed me
But kept me
Alive

Why

Why

Why

Why

Why
Won't I
Simply die
You killed me
But kept me
Alive

I gave you all of my love
But it wasn't enough
Apparently not enough
You just need-
ed to feed your greed
And then treat me rough

I gave you all of my love
But it wasn't enough
Apparently not enough
You just need-
ed to feed your greed
And then treat me rough

Pick me up
Then drop me down
I'll still love you
No matter how
Hard you hit
When we tear apart
Now I'll always have
A broken heart
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