FromZero

FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Fri Dec 21, 2001 8:54 am

CONVENIENCE
I'm trying to imagine a purpose...
For all of this.
I'm trying to picture the naked reality...
found in everything.
I paint this never ending galaxy...
Yet just a small ocean...
In the middle of something f a r greater...
Endless sky...
Paired so well with endless everything.
Where do I fit in?
My small thoughts...
My small world...
Do I delude the actual sights and senses of day to day?
Have I been so mastered by foolish thoughts and beliefs....
To do no greater
than exist...
In a gravity that seems to hold me down?
Yet w/ full unknown content to this delusion, do I not remain comfortable?
Comfortable yet shaken...
Perhaps because theres more...
than this complicated existence
we've created...
Just to exist....
I too fall victim to these earthly ways...
The many frustrations I allow myself to indulge in...
And its all quite ridiculous...

Yet convenient...

Like a credit card.

FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Thu Dec 27, 2001 4:25 pm

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One Fleeting Moment

One fleeting moment in time
So much happens…
Yet nothing at all…
Sorrowful delay, catches up soon enough
Its an unfortunate situation,
Yet all necessary... For this moment.
This one fleeting moment,
With no past, no future...

As we sit on the shores of today,
We See only now...
In the delay, we see tomorrow...
We see sorrowful delays, of yesterday.
Yet,We can only feel, some attachment, to what has been said and done.
No solid empire... just sand
As we drift past what we once knew...
Noticeable change has taken place.

In the land of lost souls,
We all will live.
In this one fleeting moment
Expansive energy so grand...
Drift away...
Pre-conceived notions...
Let Go of...
All and All Forever We'll Be
Forever

Shadows On The Wall, Maya.
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FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Tue Jan 08, 2002 4:00 pm

Defeated Self

Theres times I feel so helpless
Helplessly involved in a dangerous cycle
Unable to break free from my own grasp
Holding myself down, and under, so strong, so deep
So shallow of me to be so weak, and unable to break free
What have I become?
Once was a time, when I enjoyed kaoss and sorrow
Unaware-I was trapped, in some disease, some cycle
Now I'm struggling to break free
So many diseases I've overcome
Time ticks against me now
As I don't find pleasure, in self sabotaging pain
I've risen above, what once manifested
Only to find more ease in being fucked up
So, I'm stuck in between... two worlds
Two delays, that eventually catch up
Nagging myself constantly w/ negative thoughts
Afraid I'll lose footing, and fall back into old ways, fear keeping me from a better life
Is it useless to even bother?
I'm here now, in between two worlds...
Until I bulk up and quit toying myself, w/ bad habits
Allowing my thoughts to run a muck through my mind

I'm stuck in a virus...
Thats really hard to wipe out...

(just random bs writing when going through rough times)

FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Wed Jan 23, 2002 10:25 pm

Yellow Hearts

Answers come to me,
In a flash...
Stars make connections,
Up above,
In my mind.

I'm so screwed up, when things make sense,
I can't recall.
Try to grab, something to write,
I'm too messed up.

A beautiful life, is whenever you smile,
Moon Child.
Talk to yourself in the Purple Sky Night,
As Always.

No Ones There.
Your hearing Voices,
The whole world sleeps,
I'm too screwed up.

Drift away, Up and Out.
Voices, Noises, Music, In My Mind,
Keeps me Up, when I'm UP.

Cracking of dawn,
Rushes Forward Clouds, and Life.
Feel Their Rush...

Strobing sun, skipping music,
Clouds bursting colors...
Magnificant Cities in the Sky...

Lost Myself,
In Some Dirty Drugs.
Found Myself,
Beauty Divine.

All in one night...

(i will make this one a little more tasteful eventually)

FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Thu Apr 11, 2002 8:17 pm

Want to Be

I want to be breathing,
consiously being,
Happy and free,
Happy and free.

You bring up good points,
about this blue marble.
Why can't I see?
Why can't I see?

Stuck in a thought,
a time from the past.
Tell me how long,
can this possibly last?

I just want to be breathing,
consiously being..
Happy and Free,
Happy and Free.

FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Thu Apr 18, 2002 4:49 pm

Cab Driver

There was once a child like innocence
Voiced by a shy and delicate cry
Experiencing a long time strange situation
However maintaining
Waiting for the cure
She tried so hard to tolerate
This blessing of existence
Laughter spoke so boldly for her
Enriching her damaged soul
A Little child in the cold night air
Pouring her heart to a cab driver
Who seems to be the best yet to talk to
When the times and life keep dragging
This poor little child down
She sees the glimmer of lifes recreation
A far away life
A beating heart, remains still
Discussing Life, w/ a cab driver
Whos existence is twice what shes exhausted
He seems so interested, in the words she declares
Telling tales back and forth, till daybreak
His shift will soon be over
And she go back to the maddening relation
That so desperately awaits her arrival.......

(this is an underpainting to something i will eventually construct)

FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Tue May 07, 2002 3:58 pm

Unexpected Reunion

It comes,

Unexpected

I wander around,

to kill time

There you are with some doll in your hand

Unexpected, meeting you here

Didn't want to see your face,

if ever

Packed my trash

A long time Away

I saw the same changing face,

as ever

I remember the same diluted feelings

With a doll in your hand, you say it looks like me

I wonder what your hoping for?

Too many chances gone cold

Dancing in the rain,

with elephant ears

Trying to wash it all away

So, we sit, civilized, and eat, in some restauraunt

As if 20 years hadnt taken place

Its funny, you and your doll, that looks like me

Now your different, still the same, I'm older

I'm away,

your still here

Sifting through the same sand

FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Thu Nov 25, 2004 9:27 am

Aww, thanks Heinzs. I feel special now!

Topics I've started · Post by **heinzs** » Thu Nov 25, 2004 11:05 am

Hehe... long time no "see"....

FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Thu Nov 25, 2004 7:12 pm

yeah, right?! long time no see!

happy thanksgiving

hope all is well...

sending love from the east coast to the west,

GoddessErika · Post by **GoddessErika** » Wed Aug 24, 2005 9:04 am

<center>Edit complete 8/24/2005 ~GoddessErika</center>

FromZero · Post by **FromZero** » Wed Nov 30, 2005 8:10 am

wow, this is some pretty crappy stuff. i need to take some time to edit and add some better things. ahhhh, close your eyes!

maybe its my current mindset, but these all seem very old and juvenile. i guess they have their own beauty... defining a certain time in my life.

anyway, Heinzs - if you're listening - can I edit these (rearrange them) and add to them myself?

Topics I've started · Post by **heinzs** » Wed Nov 30, 2005 12:32 pm

You are free to edit, add to, etc. as you wish, FZ. I just didn't want all of your work to vanish the way of the autoprune monster

Topics I've started · Post by **heinzs** » Sat Apr 21, 2007 4:50 pm

alphabetizing

Poetry Pages

FromZero

Convenience

FromZero

DefeatedSelf

FromZero

Want to Be

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