I asked for it.

[soular]

I still remember the last call from you
more clearly than anything in my life.
That was a few days after we split up.

You said that you realised you loved me
and asked for another chance.
I said “I’m so tired”

Too confused to give you the right answer
I see it staying unsaid inside ever since.
After all those years, and perhaps
as long as I am alive, it will stay.
I love you, here right now.

I wonder how you are, and hope you are well.
Silly, there’s no doubt I’ll be jealous as hell
of a man with you now. No reason why.
Just feeling. And the feeling so right.

We bumped into each other a few times
and the bliss kept the truth behind.
How the hell did it happen.
Heaven was all there.
I hid my feelings in an excuse
that you hated me.
Maybe I was right doing so,
I feel never right.

There’s never another you, and I’m not sure
I’ll ever be able to open my eyes again to see
all that’s good in life. I have to live with it.
I asked for it.

[poeticpiers]

Why shoulder guilt which may not belong to you let the past go and live for now

[soular]

Yep. I just had to word it. Feels better now. Thanks much.

[heinzs]

[soular]

A long lost post but I still see it worded just as necessary
to let go.